Now That I See You

The winner of the prestigious The Australian/Vogel's Literary Award.

In those first moments, that admission felt precious to me: it was something that I alone had been deemed worthy enough to carry and I was grateful. I was grateful to finally know, but I still couldn't speak.

Something was wrong, she knew it, but she was entirely unprepared for what he would tell her.

Viewed through the lens of a relationship breakdown after one partner discloses to the other that they are transgender, this autofiction spans eighteen months: from the moments of first discovery, through the eventual disintegration of their partnership, to the new beginnings of independence.

In diaries and letters, Now That I See You unfolds a love story that, while often messy and uncomfortable, is a poignant and personal exploration of identity, gender, love and grief.

'An insightful novel . . . absorbing page-turner from the start.' --Hsu-Ming Teo, previous winner of The Australian/Vogel's Literary Award for Love and Vertigo

Emma Batchelor is a writer and author from Canberra, Australia. After completing a Bachelor of Medical Science (Hons) at the Australian National University and taking many gap years to work and travel, she eventually embraced her desire to write and created her own online publication. Emma lives part time with her partner Jesse and full time with her cat Luna. Now That I See You is her first novel.

C O N T E N T S
US
Discovery7
Aftershock11

THEM
Build-up43
Suspension79
After114

ME
Now155
Possibility202

Acknowledgements205