Dear Diary...

CeeCee Wilson hated her name.Born two weeks after her paternal grandmother's death, CeeCee was the spitting image of her, and CeeCee's mother, Allison, devastated by the loss of her mother-in-law who was also her best friend, couldn't imagine any other name.CeeCee fervently wished her mother had possessed a bit more imagination.Elsee Caitrin Wilson...a cow name in CeeCee's mind as well as the minds of her classmates.As if that weren't enough for a child to handle, CeeCee and her family had to move the summer before she was to start high school, her father developed a disease that was slowly destroying his body as well as her universe, her older brother Mark became infatuated with the wicked witch of the southwest, the man she fell in love with was in love with another, and to top it all off, she couldn't seem to stop making lists.Did God care? How could a loving God allow those things to happen? Was CeeCee losing her faith? Had she truly ever possessed any? Or was she simply a product of her parents' blind belief? What if everything she had been taught up until then had simply been a lie? What if God didn't exist and it was all a hoax?Transitioning into adulthood was painful for CeeCee as her anger, doubts, and despair overwhelmed her at times, but in the midst of her unwilling journey from child to woman she found the courage to face her life as well as herself with honesty and a determination to deal with the obstacles that had been thrown in her path.