I Believe in Evan My Fight to Save My Baby from a Devastating Brain Injury and the Forces Against Us

On January 18, 2012, Elise Schwarz received a phone call that threatened to tear her world to pieces: "There’s something wrong with Evan. He’s turning blue," her babysitter screamed down the line. When Evan was born Elise felt her life was complete. She had her own New York apartment, a brilliant career as a litigator, and a beautiful baby boy. But all that was thrown into turmoil when her only child was found to be the victim of shaken baby syndrome. All evidence pointed to the babysitter, with whom Elise had entrusted Evan’s care. In the agonizing weeks and months that follow, she finds herself taking on both the New York authorities, who at first prevent her from taking charge of her own child, and a medical establishment that seems anxious to terminate Evan’s prospects as swiftly as possible. But this single gay mother, with a great support network of friends and family around her, had the resilience to fight like a tigress for her son in order to prevent his short life being extinguished prematurely. Faced with a nightmarish mix of emotions and a roller coaster of conflicting advice and agonizing decision making, Elise emerges a Mother Courage, prepared to go to any lengths for her son. This moving and compelling account, told in diary form, is a testament to a mother’s unbending love and above all unflinching belief in her child.

Elise Schwarz lives in Glasgow, Scotland.